This is what our tuition is being used for.

I guess hell froze over long enough for the Bengals to win 38-3.

Been caught up with the college life these days. I'm about halfway through the quarter, and its beginning to take its toll. Just barely had some time to take some quizzes. Here are the results:



Which Kthxbi Poontanger are YOU?!




I'm a former loser...who would you be? Take
the quiz, kid

It feels strange to say that my friend Dez is married now. My friend Cassandra (hey girl!) and I have been anticipating the ceremony for some months now, since we were bridesmaids. We're just glad that it was the best day for my friends Desarae and Tom to get married. There was a chance of rain on saturday, but it didn't. Desarae wasn't nervous until it was time for her to actually walk down that aisle. She looked so beautiful though. I got tears in my eyes seeing her walk. She was crying too- I tried to smile at her so she would smile too! There was no time for (sad) tears, but I was just touched by the fact that she asked me to be in her wedding, let alone be her maid of honor, I'll never forget it for as long as I live! Before I start to get teary-eyed again, I just want to tell Dez (if she happens to be reading this) that I am so happy for you and I wish you and Tom all the best! Settle down, have some kids, grow old together! :) I love you guys- thanks for letting me be a part of your special day!!
The day went by so fast, but it will definately be one of the most memorable.

I could go on and on about yesterday, but I am being the biggest procrastinator right now! that business finance test is tomorrow morning and I really need to study! Or cry, depending on how you look at the situation...

"I love her voice. It sounds like feathers." — Justin Timberlake on Janet Jackson

That was a funny quote that I just read a few seconds ago here. I understand what he meant about Janet's voice, but it still sounds funny to me. I needed some laughs today. I also read the latest from the Boondocks. I had to stop from laughing out loud at work!
I'm getting ready for Desarae's wedding after I leave campus. I've recruited my cuz to do my hair at the last minute. I hope that she can take an IOU, I'm low on cash right about now. I'm just a typical broke college student, *sigh*.
I can't wait to see my friend in her gown tomorrow! I hope that her day goes well, there is a chance of rain, but who knows! Just let it be sunny for her and Tom (her fiance, well not after tomorrow at 1:30)! Just let them have their day!
It's about that time that I get ready to leave work. Got a class that begins at 1, and then I'm free! Well, not exactly! Besides preparing for the wedding on Saturday, I gotta cram for my first Business Finance exam! The professor is so confusing! I'm afraid!!

The prez was in town last night. Dare I say it but I really didn't give a care what he was here to present, although it has something to do with declaring war on Iraq. I guess that I should read this to become more informed on the situation. Eh, maybe later. I'm at work right now.
Anyway, the part of the Bush visit that attracted my attention was the fact that a Walnut Hills HS Senior got to greet Bush Jr. as he got off his plane. Some moment that must have been for her. Maybe I'm still waiting for one of those "big moment." One of these days, that moment will be here, whether I win a million bucks or just get my butt out of college by 2005. I shall wait and see.
This sudden rush of cold air that has arrived in Cincy has got me in one of those bitter moods. I don't enjoy cold weather- give me some heat! I went out the house today in a fleece sweatshirt that I purchased from Aeropostale, and a hoody with a thermal lining in it and was stillcold! Guess I need more sweatshirts then...
Well, I've been here at the office for about an hour now, still have about 2.5 more hours to go. My mind is focused on 5pm because I continuously reflect on the time I have to spend on homework tonight. I want to keep that 'good streak' going since I spent like about 2 hours last night on practice problems for my Business Finance course. Tonight I have to focus on more of those Finance problems, plus type up my first assignment for Business Writing. For now I will just get on with the rest of my tasks at work. So much for being on hiatus.

Somehow I managed to survive the first 8 days of my Junior year. I should be celebrating, but I have plenty of work to keep me from doing so. I have a hunch that my Business Finance course is going to be one of the harder couses that I am taking. It sucks that it is required for business students. I know why this class is going to be difficult, because its accounting based, and I did poorly in my Financial and Managerial accounting courses. Woo, lordy! *why did i write that?!*
I just called my friend about the Information Systems book that I borrowed from her from Spring quarter. I feel lousy that I held on to it for so long without giving it back to her. But there is no need for the book now, she just asked me to get rid of it.
Since I am taking really long breaks from typing this entry, its about time that I close it. For now, Random Thoughts is going to be on hiatus for a while. Got too much reading to do.

It's been a week since I've began classes @ UC. Right now I'm at work, tired with a headache. So this headache will probably alter my entry. Classes have been going fine thus far. I'm taking 15 credits this quarter, but 12 of those 15 credits are business oriented classes. On Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, I have Business Finance at 9 and Business Writing at 1. On Tuesdays and Thursdays I have Intro to Quantitative Analysis at 8, Physics of Light and Color at 9:30, then Operations Management at 11. I consider Tuesdays and Thursdays to be my "busy days" because of the back to back to back classes. For once, I can actually say that I have good Mondays: I don't work on Mondays plus I go home for a few hours inbetween my 9 and 1 o'clock classes. Sweet!
I'm thinking that I have this headache because I am a bit hungry. Who knows. I need to stop thinking about it for a moment and just remain focused on working until 5. For now, until my head stops pounding, that's it for this entry. Later!

My little week of vacation is winding down, and I still have a few errands to run. I've pratically been a lazy bum all this week with the exeption of staying out until Monday evening away from home. I celebrated the end of my first co-op quarter, plus went to my friend Desarae's wedding shower, and go to a party Saturday night! I partied hard at my friend Simi's 20th b-day party. Well, I did most of my drinking before I went out there, but shouldn't have continued to sample some drinks when I got out there. All I had was a Mike's Hard Lemonade and a Strawberry Daquri wine cooler. Well, that mixed with two cans of beer and a few shots of Canadian liquor did me in later on! Around 4 in the morning when everyone was basically out I had to go to the bathroom (the beer made me do it)- little did I know that I was going to hug the porcelain soon after that trip. Yuck. It happened pretty quick, so I had no time to cry until after the fact. I had to tell Dave that it was time to go since I got sick. By that time it was 5am. I did leave Simi a voicemail to let her know what had happened. I know for the next time that I drink- just stick to one type of drink! Just can't sample everything known to man in one night! Bad Shamekko!
The rest of my week has been average, spent some time with David on Wednesday, just hanging out or whatever, just enjoying some time with each other. Around this time next week we'll be finishing up our first "week" (3 days actually) of classes at good ol' UC. I'm starting my 3rd year, he's starting his first as a transfer student. Let's just see how things go. I have a feeling now that I am going to be a busy lady this quarter. I'm taking a 4 business courses and another physics course. Here's my basic schedule for the fall quarter:


Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays:

9am: Business Finance

1pm: Writing for Business



Tuesdays and Thursdays:

8am: Intro to Quantitative Analysis

9:30am: Physics of Light and Color

11am: Operations Management



I am predicting this to be a heavy load, just based on the fact that I am taking 4 business classes. Let's just see how things go. Before I forget, I have to factor in hours at the library, plus time for studying, sleep, and maybe joining an organization(?) I keep telling myself this is the year for me to join an organization, and try to stick to it I LOVED BEING IN CHORUS last winter. I had such a ball singing 3 times a week- what a stress reliever it could be. The energy and the people were wonderful! Maybe I should join- or at least crash the class the first day to say hi to the director- to see if he remembers me. He should- I was such a lovely person. LOL, let me quit with the b.s.!
Classes begin Wednesday, September 25th. My summer is officially over! I shudder at the thought...

Have a good weekend everyone! If any of you are in Cincinnati, may I suggest that you go Downtown to go to Oktoberfest-Zinzinnati, check out the Reds, or see the Bearcats battle the Buckeyes at Paul Brown Stadium!

Yesterday felt like an (almost) ordinary day, but I found out later that evening that my Mom's cousin (which makes her my second cousin) just had a baby boy on 9-11. It's ironic because I recalled browsing an article about some school kids writing to babies born on 9-11-01.

Here is something that I just found while looking up news articles on The Cincinnati Enquirer site.

It's been a year already. Hard to believe. Does anyone think that it went by pretty fast? I believe that it has. I still remember that day going to work and stopping at Walgreen's on my way there. The associates were saying "Hurry up, cut on the tv! I heard something about a plane crash in New York!" I really didn't think much of it as I payed for my snacks at the register- that is, until I got to work. Just about everyone in the Admin office had their eyes glued to the television, watching the events unfold before there very eyes. I just looked in total confusion as they showed the first tower falling into large clouds of dusty smoke. It just didn't seem real watching that on the television- it was like, watching a movie with special effects. Except these weren't special effects, this was reality. That's what caused the confusion. Maybe as people we are so desensitized by all of these action films with big explosions and such, that when something similar to a movie plot is played out in reality, that it's hard to grasp, difficult to understand, and uncomfertable to watch. By the time that I made it home from work, to hopefully find some salvation in finding something to watch on television, I discovered that many of the networks, especially the ones that had their studios in New York were off the air. All the channels that I flipped through were showing non-stop coverage of the "Attack on America". It's crazy how they had a name for it already within the same 24 hours of the event occuring. Then for the news coverage to continue for the next week almost constantly began to have its take on a lot of people. It came to the point where I had to find other outlets for means of driving away the boredom, like browsing the internet, talking to my parents and friends, or just listening to music. Well, I don't want to make it seem like I am some sort of tv junkie, but it was depressing and bothersome to see the same video of the airplane crashing into the twin towers. I was basically sick of it, like many people around were. We all just had enough, and wanted to regain some type of normalcy in our lives, just to bring back some level of comfort.
I hope that this year we as people will regain greater levels of comfort as we celebrate the first anniversary of that fateful day.

With the first 9.11 anniversary occuring tomorrow, seeing this headline scares me.
My heart, thoughts, and prayers goes out to all of those who were affected by the attacks in some way, shape or form. Lets pray that peace will prevail and justice will be (someday) served...

These entries are getting few and far between. I don't have much to write about these days, life has been pretty steady, busy, and hectic. But its the same old routine unfortunately. I'm just anticipating the start of the new school year, which begins September 25th. Maybe the excitement will begin again when fall quarter starts. The only out of the ordinary thing that is occurring to me right now is the fact that I am having sinus/allergy problems, but then again, that's an annual occurance. Eh. There's no need for me to complain about my boredom, so I will resume with my tasks at work. Later.

This is definately the picture of the day.
I had a really cool entry about all of my views about the vma's last night, but it was lost after I pressed the "post & publish" button. I'm too lazy to type it again. Oh well, maybe in the next entry.

Friday was here, went away, lets skip to Wednesday.
Well, those forms that I mentioned about in the last entry were okay. That put me at ease. I know why I was stressing over it, because my co-worker, Andrea is really good at formatting visual things. Well, she should be, she is a graphic design major, which is cool. She's done a few forms for the Admin office this summer, and they came out really neat, really clean. I like art, but I just get all anxious when I am intimidated I guess. Anyway, as for my weekend, I didn't freak out like I did the previous weekend when I didn't hear from David when we were supposed to hang out at the Black Family Reunion. I knew this time around he was packing to get ready to move down to Cincy on Sunday, in which he did. He invited me over later that evening, he picked me up from my house at like 9:30. My Mom was (extremely) worried that I was leaving out the house "late" on Sunday night. I didn't really tell her where I was going though- she didn't like that I was with David the first time around, she'll probably be pissed that I'm back with him again. Who knows, I really don't care (to an extent), this is my life you know. I think sometimes my Mom doesn't realize that I am 20 years old now. Well, I got back home at 3:30 in the morning. Luckily I only went to work from 8-noon on Monday, or otherwise I would have been a mess trying to sit at my desk for 8 hours. And Monday would have been my Dad's 54th birthday. I miss you Dad, I know that you are watching over me, and I hope that you love me unconditionally, although I may make some mistakes; all I ask of you is to love me anyway.

As for Tuesday, nothing much happened. Tried to study for that Marketing final exam that I had this afternoon, but not that much. I hate studying sometimes. As for today, I went to work from 8-12:45, tried to cram some more before 1:30 to only be distracted by a combination of major hunger pangs/pains and information overload (from cramming). I tried to sell back my Marketing book too, but I'm holding off on that. I can't believe that I paid over 100 bucks for the new edition of the textbook, and I will only recieve 34 bucks max when I sell the book back. Well, that's college for ya, they just take your money in all sorts of ways. One more thing, my friend Desarae sent me a wedding invitation! I'm the maid of honor, and the ceremony is less than two months away! It's on October 12th! Time to get crackin!

Well, that's all the news I have...for now at least.

Friday is here!
And boy, am I glad! I have the entire weekend to look forward to. And so far, it has been a good, but busy day at work. I was trying to reformat some supply forms for Becky, but I don't feel like I have the knack for formatting forms I guess. I've printed out the two forms that I'm reformatting like 15 times a piece! I've asked like 4 people in the office to look at what I had so far. I hope that its okay. Maybe I'm just stressing over it a bit too much. Besides, they are just forms. Then, there was a power outtage around 11 this morning. Deja vu man- we had one about a month ago arpund the same time. Freaky. To top it all off, the power outage on campus occurred right before we were to have a group lunch with all of the people in the office for one of our fellow co-workers. Her name is Emily, and today is her last day in the Admin office before heading back to college to finish up her degree this year. Best of luck to you Emily, its been nice working with you (again during the summer). The gathering was kinda fun at first, because we all sat in the dark eating pizza and having salad; the blackout made things more memorable.
Anywho, its about 3:30 in the afternoon. I've been speding quite a bit of my time outside the office, on account of scanning some docs for my other/regular boss, Joanne. Hey, at least I got to learn how to use Adobe Acrobat! Just only 1.5 hours to go before work ends!
I'm pretty excited about this evening too, because I'm hanging out with some classmates from high school. We're going to dinner around 6, and then to a movie. It should be a lot of fun.
And as for Saturday, I have no plans as of yet. Maybe I should take that day to study for my final exam next Wednesday. I might come back up to campus with my laptop to see how it works. I want to find out if there are any ethernet hookups around campus. Maybe I won't have to purchase that wireless network card. But then again, I would like to because that would add to my options on where I can use my laptop around campus.
Last but not least, Sunday will be a pretty good day in my opinion. That will be the day that David will move down here so that he can get settled in before classes begin on the 25th. I'm quite glad that the day (for him to move) is finally here. I wonder if I should get him a "welcome to Cincy" gift? Well, I will wonder more about that later, I have more scanning to do for now!

Note to self: don't look at blackplanet.com member pages while at work! I got a new note from this dude, and to be nosey, I checked out his member page. I wish that I hadn't cuz he had this one gif file of a girl giving head to a guy in a chair that looks like a wheel chair. The caption said something like "blow job accessable" or some trife mess like that! I hurried and logged off bp at the risk of getting caught by a co-worker viewing that! The last thing I want to do is look like a pervert! That is one thing that I am not- a pervert!
I'm going to get back to work now!

I am such a lazy bum.

It's been almost a week since I've posted any new entries to this blog, but then again, I had nothing (much) to write about. Currently, I am still at work, I have a little less than two hours to go. I'm glad of that because I have been deprived of sleep overnight. If I didn't wake up at 4 this morning, maybe, just maybe, I would have had enough sleep to get me though today. I should have went to sleep earlier Sunday night, but instead, I was up watching The Anna Nicole Show and The Osbournes. Maybe I was in need of some reality tv last night. Reality Tv, doesn't that sound like an oxymoron? It does to me for some reason. As for my reality, a special someone told me that he loved me about two weeks ago. *smiles* Life is good. Dang, well that was two weeks ago, nothing else exciting has happened to me since then. I've been living a pretty boring life during this summer I guess. Can't hardly catch up with any of my friends (and vice versa), I stay tired all the time on account of working 36 hours plus going to class 4 hours a week. The last week of my Marketing class is here. I'm still debating on whether to take the final exam next Wednesday or not. Decisions, decisions. If I can make it through this last regular exam this Thursday, that will be helpful. Now, if I can just sit down and study for the exam, then I'll be back in business. Gotta go, there's more work to do here in the office.

No time to really write anything right now, since I actually have some work to do. While I was distracted, I saw this on the Sony website. It's an expensive little dog, but at least you don't have to keep your floor covered in newspaper.

Yes, the trip is over. It was okay, but the shopping was great! We missed the actual reunion, but still sported our shirts anyways. My Mom, Grandmom, my cousins, and myself were going around looking like a navy blue army of sorts. I'm glad that I got to meet my Grandma's Aunt Maddie (however it's spelled)! She's 90 years old and funny as hell! I was shocked and confused when she started talking about the songs "My Neck, My Back" and "Hot in Herre". In her unique, silly way, she somehow meshed the lyrics together- I don't even recall what she said cuz I was laughing that hard.
In my opinion, the trip was poorly planned, but I enjoyed meeting Aunt Maddie, plus buying some cute clothes. I even found a Coach-like purse! Just having a materialistic moment there.
We didn't get back until Monday morning. Oddly enough, I got into my house at 7:58, just enough time to call the office to tell them that I wasn't going to be in that day. Too bad that my boss didn't get the message until I asked her about it Tuesday. Oh well, they weren't upset about it or anything. Lesson learned: make sure to call back if I am leaving a message when taking a day off.
Having that day off has made the week go by a little faster. Tomorrow is Thursday, already! That's cool cuz my Marketing class is cancelled! I'm planning to go into work early that day, after dropping off some verification papers at the financial aid office, then going to the bookstore to exchange a shirt that I bought for my cousin AJ. The shirt was a bit too small unfortunately. I'll just have to remember to ship the shirt to his home all the way in Kansas. I feel bad that I didn't get the opportunity to hang out with him, his little sister Alexuxs, and their parents (my Aunt Sherry and Uncle Arnold) while they were here. But there is always next summer when I can make up that lost time with them.

My Mom, Grandma and cousins should have been on out way down to Alabama as of now, but I'm currently at home waiting for them to stop by and get us so that we can hit the road already! I will be glad when this weekend is over- hate to sound like a sore looser, but I wish that next weekend would get here cuz I would rather be out with David right about now, that (cute) bum! Enough of the griping, I just wanted to post a link to
Aeropostale.com They've completely revamped their site. All the old site could do is create wish lists that you could email to your friends, or print out for yourself to take to their store. Now you can create a profile and a personality (might sound strange, but you will understand what I mean when you visit the site). The site is cool as hell-be sure to check it out!

I just found out that my site/storage space(the location that I link my pics for this blog) isn't working properly due to a data transfer error. Something like that. I'll deal with it when I get home today, then again, maybe not. I would move it over to my other site that I haven't transfered any files to as of yet, and then again I can be lazy and do nothing.

Yes! This is my last day of work before the weekend begins! We had a blackout today around 11:15 this morning throughout the entire main campus from what I heard from my co-workers. It lasted like 45 minutes- we basically sat in the dark. But it was cool to have a spontaneous break like that!

My co-op boss is already gone for the day, and all next week to go on her vacation. I just won't be here on Friday. It's cool though- I have a few projects to work on next week, but things should be easy going for the week. I'm glad that I get to sleep in tomorrow- but not for long- I have to return to campus at 1pm to participate in my last marketing experiment for my Intro to Marketing course that I am enrolled in this summer. It's cool because I wanted to go to the bookstore and get some t-shirts for my Uncle Arnold, Aunt Sherry and my little cousins A.J. and Alexsus. My Aunt and cousin Alexsus are supposed to come in town this evening, hopefully by the time that I get home from work. I feel like going shopping today though- just in the mood to do so, plus I wanna pick up some things to take with me on the long car ride to Alabama tomorrow evening. I need to continue to save my money so that I can get that laptop paid off!

It's amazing how it seems like a few people that I know are taking trips right now. There's me, my co-op boss Becky, my Aunt, Uncle and cousins, and David. Right now he's on a trip with one of his high school buddies- I think they went white-water rafting or something like that. I hope that he's having fun- cuz I miss talking to that bum. I'm guessing that we won't probably hang out until around this time next weekend. But that is only my guess though. Did I already mention that I missed that bum?! :P

Plans for the rest of the day:
Shop for stuff (yea, real specific, huh!)
Go Home
Relax!
Eat something
Spend time with out-of-town guests

One more day of class and work and then I will be free. Gotta prepare for that weekend trip to Alabama for that family reunion. I'll be glad once I get finished with that Marketing exam tomorrow morning at 7:30. Still have to cram for it. I'm so busy, I don't have time to type much. I'm currently still at work, and I have to go and meet with my co-op boss like right now. until next time!

Another weekend gone. But I can't say that I didn't have fun though. After waiting what seemed like months and Sundays to get my hair done (it looked similar to this) on Saturday, David and I hooked up to go to the Newport Aquarium later that afternoon.
I am still amazed by the art of forgiveness.

Since I can link pics on this blog again, I would like to present the before and after of my page on BlackPlanet.com:


Before:
After:


I used Ulead's PhotoImpact 6.0 to make that image above, just to play around with it a bit. It turned out pretty cool in my opinion. But hey, that's just my opinion.
To this day, I still wonder why I still login to that site. They claim that there are over 5 million members, but only 25,000 members are on the site. What's up with that? Unless those 25,000 members have 200 member names each? Nah, I doubt that.

I just had a lunch that lasted well over 60 minutes. I am allowed an hour for lunch everyday, but I ran into my cousin on my way back to the office. I found out that he works on campus, with one of the places under construction. As far as I know, there are like 3-4 locations of construction, most of them connected. Well, anyway, my cousin (actually my second cousin; our moms our first cousins), nicknamed Boop of all names (he had that name since he was a kid) is about to have a son in October. I was shocked when I heard that he was going to be a Dad recently; I was pretty sure that he was going to college on a baseball scholarship. He's been in to baseball since he was a shorty. Baseball was his thing most definately. He still says that he is going to go to college part time to become an accountant. I wish him all the best, he's like one of my favorite cousins. Yea, it's not "politically correct" to claim favorite family members, but Boop is one of the people that I grew up with basically. I used to see him a lot when me and my parents visited his Grandma (which is my Mom and Dad's Aunt, and my Great-Aunt, something like that-she;s still my Aunt regardless!) and we used to run around and do a whole bunch of stuff. I remember this one time when our other cousins (that I really didn't care for all that much) got us into a fight somehow. There had to be a lot of words exchanged for that to happen. We got in trouble and my Great-Aunt put us in "time out" and we cried like some babies. If I recall the story correctly, we apologized to each other. Since that day, we never got into a fight. We're just cool like that.

It was cool as hell seeing him today. Hopefully one day soon we can get the chance to hang out. By the fall, he will probably be busy with the arrival of the baby. I understand though- just as long as he takes care of that baby, that's my major concern. I stress that to him today too: "You better take care of that baby, or I'm gonna get you" is what I told him.

One of the biggest life lessons that I've learned thus far in my 20 years of existance is that there isn't just one road to your destination, there are many avenues in which you can take that will get you to the same place. I hope that my cousin chooses to still get to the destination that he wants to be in his life although he has a baby on the way. I hope that he can provide for his son and still be able to make all of his dreams come true.

Doesn't this car looked like a tricked out golf cart?

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Wow, one year!
It's hard to believe that I've been blogging for one year exactly today. Well, to be technical about it, I didn't make an entry everyday, but a year's a year, right?

Mission accomplished. I didn't go to the family reunion Saturday afternoon, it was just too hot to sit in the park. Besides, I didn't get home until 5pm Saturday afternoon from my friend's house. I had a good time while I was there, it was cool just kickin back and relaxing without having to worry about everything going on. It was good to take a moment like that- maybe I will do it again next weekend!
After I made it back home, I took a nap for a few hours, then chilled outside with my girl Dal, and then later on, my cousins Kyla and Jasmine came over to spend the night with me and my Mom. My other cousin Troy stopped by to see how we were doing. Kyla, Troy and I ended up going to find some food at 11:30 at night. We didn't make it back to my house until like 1am. I love my cousin Troy dearly, but I was pissed when he stopped on the shoulder of the highway and made me drive on the spot. He got out the car, and came over to the passenger side where I was sitting and told me to open the door then scoot over to the driver's seat. I didn't appreciate being put on the spot like that though, but I did drive though, all the way to Clifton to get some food. The only time that I messed up was when my Mom called my cell phone while I was trying to park- I ended up going over the curb. Doh! I was just glad to get out the car man! I ended up arguing with my Mom cuz we were out late with Kyla, who happens to be 13. She was just going along for the ride, plus we didnt think that we were going to be out that long just to pick up some food. Troy went, here, there and everywhere looking for some of our other cousins so he can drop off the two bags of clothes that they left in his van. Mom had the impression that we were going close by to get some food then come right back. Obviously that wasn't the case here!
I felt bad that things went down like that Saturday night. I'll be sure that it won't happen again anytime soon!

Isn't this some mess. All the while I've been a suscriber to Monster.com, I finally find an intership opportunity that is within the means of my major, but the problem is that I need a 3.0 gpa to be qualified for the postion, plus its in Maryland. Some luck huh. Well, at least it's Friday and after work I'm going to stay over a friends house. I am still hoping that the family reunion is cancelled, but I seriously doubt that it will be cancelled for this year. Oh well, I don't want to go either way, it gives me an excuse to stay over my friend's house longer- as long as they don't mind! :)


Here's that job description:

McLean, Koehler, Sparks & Hammond, a regional CPA and business consulting firm, is seeking a motivated, high-energy candidate to intern for the marketing department in our Towson office. Duties include:

- Coordinating special events

- Writing business correspondence

- Developing and disseminating advertising and PR communication

- Creating newsletters and brochures

- Handling media relations

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I like this car! Anyone got like $8000 that I can have/borrow?

I've been so tired all this week, I really haven't had the energy to post an entry!

I wish that I was able to get canadian television. They're going to show The Osbournes-uncut!

Foolish, maybe?


On my way home after having to pay 25 bucks for my perscription, I got a phone call from the most unlikey source-David. I hung up on him, then redialed; I was curious to know what he had to say, since he was willing to talk. I am assuming that he felt guilty for what he had done to me a few weeks ago. Well, he sounds sincere but sometimes I am just unsure what to think. I sensed that he would call eventually, but I just didn't know when. I knew in my heart I didn't do anything to him to get dumped for, but I still felt like I did somehting wrong, but just couldn't figure out what that was exactly. He sounded way off when he broke up with me that day; it felt like I was talking to a complete stranger. When I found out that he was close by (I was on the bus when he called me) I got off the bus and told him to meet me there. I wanted to see what he had to say to me face to face. Seize the opportunity.

We talked for like 3 hours while riding around the city. I'm thinking my subconcious mind told me to get off that bus and talk to him; I could have been bitchy about it and cussed him out over the phone. Maybe I got a little bit more dignity than that; basically I wanted to talk things out in a calm manner; I wanted to let him know how much he hurt my feelings that day. I still wondered that it was something that I did for him to dump me. I've been through a lot of that in my life- being mistreated and never knowing why it was done in the first place. I am a bit more peaceful about the situation as a whole; he left it up to me about if I want to begin talking to him again. I am still hurt by what he did to me. That scar will remain.

The hardest thing that I've ever done in my life was forgive people; it took me like 4 years to forgive a best friend of mine. Actually, it was more like I needed to forgive myself for being so stubborn for so long about something that seemed so meaningless as time passed on. That's the most extreme example that I can think of. I had to forgive some family members too, including my Grandmother, because of the emotional pain that she caused me while I was growing up. Sometimes it still occurs now, but I know how to handle it.

I'm unsure if its all about forgiving him completely, but its more about healing. I still have to sort this out in my mind and in my heart. There is a lot of work to be done.

My horoscope today, according to Yahoo.com:

Things will be going well for you today dear Cancer, although you might get the sense that someone is trying to hold you back. Approach everything with a very disciplined frame of mind and realize that you can accomplish quite a bit if you just remain calm and organized. You have a great deal of energy available to you, but keep in mind that this is the type of energy geared more towards reserved, traditional, and stable actions.


Are you sure that I have a great deal of energy within me today? I sure didn't have any this morning while sitting in my Intro to Marketing class at 7:30 in the morning. I think I dozed off at least every ten minutes! Here's the kicker: the class didn't end until 9:20! The only way that I could inject some energy in my body was to purchase a vanilla cafe latte on my way to work. Now that woke me up! I'll probalby will have a cafine buzz the rest of the afternoon, because I'm not much of a coffee drinker; I just happened to feel daring this morning. I've only been at work for an hour, it's not bad so far. I have a meeting to attend at 1pm today; I'm glad to be included in meetings because it makes me feel all important and stuff. Hopefully, I will be able to attend one tomorrow morning at 10am with my co-op boss, Becky, dealing with a project that I'm directly involved with. I am in charge of organizing all the equipment information into a database, as well as requesting the information from all the library departments in the first place in order to implement the entire project.
Cool huh, I'm actually doing stuff!

Eh, it's Sunday, and there hasn't been much going on today. I was supposed to take my cousins Kyla and Jasmine to the mall, but that fell apart completly. (Besides, we, plus our cousins I'Yanna and Mekaeila all went to see Men In Black II at the movies Saturday night.) There is always Saturday. I like to take my time shopping anyways. I felt bad that the plans fell through though. So, I've been at home all day today; it's cool, there is nothing wrong with a lazy day every now and agin. Since I called off work on Friday, I've had a pretty lengthy weekend. I am refreshed for work tomorrow. I believe that I have a test in Marketing on Thursday, so I have to study before then. My Grandmother's birthday is today. I love her, but its funny how she does things for my bad cousins when I get left out of the cold. It makes no sense, but I won't let it bother me; that has been going on since I was a child, so I'm used to it now, I'm not as hurt about it as I used to be. There is a family reunion coming up on July 20th. I'm contemplating if I want to attend or not. I love my family, but they can treat each other badly, and I am not willing to participate in such evil acts. It's not my way, not a part of my morals. (I try to) Rise above the craziness that my family dishes out.
Eh, its cool though.

Random Shout-Out: This one goes out to my buddy Steve. He called me Tuesday night from St. Louis to wish me a happy birthday. He's such a sweetie. It was nice to hear from him. :)

Since Blogger was down for maintenance yesterday, I composed my blog as a word document...
July 5, 2002
7:58 PM
Listening to: Nsync’s Celebrity

Dang, it sucks that Blogger is down for maintenance, because I was ready to put in a new entry. I got my big b-day present that I bought myself- that Dell laptop, on the day after my birthday. I’ve been playing with the thing ever since I got it out the box. I was kinda bummed that the cd burner wasn’t on there but it’s cool; I can get an external one with an usb connection for about 150 in most stores. Since I am making a little more money, I can afford things like that. Unfortunately, I didn’t make it in to work this morning. I felt really sick about 15 minutes after I woke up; I was hoping that I would recuperate before it was time for me to leave, but I didn’t. I felt bad calling in though, I didn’t want to make it seem like I was skipping work or something like that. It’s crazy that I felt better like 10 minutes after calling, but what was done was done, because I would have been like 2-3 hours late if I did attempt to go in, oh well. So I spent my Friday sitting in the house chillin with my Mom, watching TV, and resting. It felt weird being at home too, I’ve gotten used to working 8 hours now. It’s not that bad, you just have to know how to discipline yourself. I might get a Christmas job and try to work as many hours as I can, and work at the library too. Its not bad working two part time jobs when you are out on break, but when school gets back in 2003 for the winter quarter, I will quit the seasonal job. I just begin to flashback to last year when I worked at Staples, and at Langsam and went to class! That right there wore me out! I barely had time for homework, and my grades suffered as a result. It sucked, but I learned my lesson, definatlely!

Another thing that sucks right now is that I cannot connect to the internet with my cable modem on my desktop. I need to go to the nearest service center so that I can get a cable that I can connect my laptop to the cable modem. I’ll probably will have to get a ride out there, so that I can take laptop with me. I don’t have a case for it yet, so I’ll probably will have to get that too, just get everything out the way in one trip. Sounds like a plan, now all I have to do is execute it.

My b-day was cool though- after going to class and then to work (with a bunch of muffins that I bought on the way there, and my boss treated me to lunch, which was very sweet of her!) and then going home to relax after receiveing many phone calls and running into my friend Eunice, whom I haven’t seen in about a month, I was pretty satisfied with my day. I was kinda bummed though cuz my daddy wasn’t here with me to celebrate my 20th b-day. I know that he’s looking down on me, with his kool-aid smile, no doubts about that!

I’m gonna go and try to figure out what classes I wanna take in the fall. Might as well do it now- there’s no time like the present.

I'm 20 now! :)

I like this font. Maybe I'll use it every now and again. Makes my entries look smaller, but neat. Anywho, my weekend went by in a big blur. I spent my entire weekend at my Grandmother's house. My cousins Kyla, who's 13, and Jasmine who's 9 arrived in Cincy Saturday morning via plane to stay with their Dad for the summer (which is my Uncle). I went with him to the airport- the last time that I went to the airport was almost two years ago, when I went to visit my Uncle, Aunt, and Cousins that stay in Kansas. Way before the 9-11 fiasco. We could only go into the baggage claim- that's where we met my cousins. I was happy that I spotted them, I began running towards them. It was cute,like one of those things that you see in the movies or something. I felt bad when they were here back in April on their Spring Break because they were sick, and I was already back in school on account of having my Spring Break in late March.

My birthday is tomorrow!


I got my pc back on Sunday afternoon, like 10 minutes before the store closed. I spent 80 bucks to find out that my processor is screwed up and the only way that I can find one that 900mhz is to buy one online. It's fine cuz I just ordered a laptop from Dell last week, and hopefully I should have it in my possession by this time next week! I qualified for the monthly payments which is cool, but my goal is to have it paid off by the end of this year. See, things are looking out! :)

Today has went by relatively fast (its 4:15 right now-I didn't finish this entry all in one sitting), I'm glad of that because it's a Monday, and Mondays, in my opinion, usually stink. Fortunately, this one was good. I got to see my friend Alia during my lunch break while I was in the bookstore grabbing a snack. I miss seeing her when I came to work in the mornings; she used to work for the library as well. When you are stuck in one place for 9 hours a day, its good to see a familiar face while on your way to work. Being on campus during the summer is tough at times, because the people that I'm used to seeing aren't around for now. Eh, I'll survive.

Ah, a cool thing that I just found that is worth sharing, the lyrics to Blurry, by Puddle of Mudd. They were found here via Lyrics.com I woke up this morning feeling pretty sick, and I played this song while I was getting ready for work. A real good pick me up, as well as a good way to wake up!



"Blurry"

Everything’s so blurry
and everyone's so fake
everybody’s empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble and I crawl
& you could be my someone
you can be my scene
you know that I’ll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what your doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that’s not very far

(Chorus)
can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well you shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well you shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me

everyone is changing
there’s no one left that’s real
make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
you could be my someone
you can be my scene
you know that I will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what your doing
I wonder where you are
there’s oceans in between us
but that’s not very far

(Chorus)
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
well you shoved it in my face the pain you gave to me

Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to run away
nobody showed you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to run away

(Chorus)
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
can you take away the pain
the pain you gave to me
this pain you gave to me

This is the start of my second week of co-oping but things are going slow somewhat to be honest. Plus, this is a start of a new, um existance, well one without David. He broke up with me on Saturday, over the phone. Cuz I haven't put out yet. How lame. That made me realize that the relationship was based on a lie. But I'm not worried though, he was a waste of 6 weeks, however long it was!

Besides, I missed going out to the mall with my cousins anyway! Also, my B-day is next Tuesday, so that means that I can start fresh and new. Mentioning "Fresh and New" makes me want to listen to that song by Kelis called "Young, Fresh, and New". You already know that the Neptunes had their hand on that track but I love their producing! Wish that I could listen to it now, but I am at work until 5pm today. Maybe I play the song while on my lunch break. Sounds like a plan! But I digress...I don't want to rant and rave about what happened to me on Saturday, it's just not worth all of that typing! Baby, I'm moving on!

Right now I am still enduring my first day of co-op with Langsam Library. They were nice enough to put me on full time for the summer quarter. Now all I have to do is get my gpa back up to at least a 2.5 to remain eligable for another practice quarter. I am sad that my gpa is a 2.3 though. Basically, it sucks. I need to create a back up plan just in case I won't be able to stay in the program for the next quarter. Its bothers me because that was the main reason that I decided to attend the University of Cincinnati- because I heard that they have a well established co-op education program. There is nothing wrong with finding an alternative I must say. Maybe I can do an internship in the summer of 2003, which seems so far away from now. The word "internship" leaves me with a bad taste in my mouth (no pun intended, although is was truly obvious)! As for today, it went by kinda fast in the morning then it slowed down right around 1pm, when I took my lunch. I think that I still have a full belly, plus, I didn't have many assignments to do today since the Admin office is temporarliy in the conference room as they recarpet the actual office, so things probably won't pick up until Wednesday by my guess. I'm working with the business manager of the office, Becky, so I'll probably will be doing a lot of work with all of the catalog orders throughout the library, which is a lot of paperwork from what I know about it thus far. I'm looking forward to the challenge actually, because I get to learn some new stuff this summer.
My dream co-op job is to work for a record label in the promotions department or anything advertising and marketing related. That would be so cool.
Plus, I'm hoping to move in with some friends for the fall quarter nearby campus. Myself and three of my friends were considering rooming together which would be cool to me. My plan was to move out around/ during/ before my junior year anyways. Good opportunity- I really hope so! In the meantime I know that I need to throw out or give away a lot of my stuff. I have too much stuff actually.
As for the smaller things that are going on in my life right now, I did get my phone problem straightened out. I ended up all the way over in Florence, Kentucky to see if I could get my cell phone repaired, but I had to end up buying a new phone. Oh well, I learned my lesson! Don't drop any more phones, especially when there is water nearby! I got to see David on Wedesday Friday and Saturday, which is good news to mention. Oh yea, how can I forget my birthday! I placed a birthday countdown on my webpage!
Um, that's about it on the good side of things, I am still having arguments with my Mom and she is stressing me out especially when I mentioned to her that I would like to move out within the next few months. She can be so overprotective sometimes, it gets on my nerves to an extent. I definately have to tell her that I'm gonna move out by the time fall quarter classes begins. That conversation itself is gonna be hell in its own right. My goodness!

Happy Father's Day to all the Dads out there.
On a day like this, it reminds me how much that I miss my Dad, and how much things have changed since he's been gone.
There are more things that I could say about what is going on in my life, but I think that the two sentences above speak for themselves.

Yesterday ended up to be a pretty kick ass day! Except for the fact when I went to the Cingular Wireless store downtown, they were closed at 5:40 and the sign on the door clearly shows that they close at 6pm on weekdays. I didn't let that one thing spoil my day. I still went out with David after that. We ended up in Tri-County mall at Lerner's where my friend Simi happens to work. That was my plan all along, to have Simi meet David, but I just didn't let David in on it until after the fact. I told him that it was "all the part of my plan."
After that, we wondered around the mall a bit, got some food, and then ended the night by chilling up in Eden Park. It was such a nice night out, and (for me) it's hard to believe that we've been together for a month now (exactly a month on June 9th)! My expectations weren't that high, but that philosophy is applied to a lot of things that are going on in my chaotic life.
It's about that time that I get back to work for the time being.
But before I go....

Buy something! Like that cd by Ashanti!

Cool, one of my friends have a journal set up now! I guess it was time for one of my actual friends to set up one. Rachel is one of my friends from high school and we go to the same university. I just found out via email this morning that she is on a trip overseas, I forgot the name of the country. Sounds like I need to read that email again. :) Right now I am at work until 1pm. Its 9:35 right now, four hours can seem like such a long time when you are sitting around. Yesterday work went by fast because I spent most of my time packing boxes because they are currently recarpeting the office (right now as I type this). My left shoulder is paying for all of that lifting of those boxes, but i'll live. :P
I'm looking forward to the rest of today though. Once I get off work I'm going to run home to burn JE Heartbreak by Jagged Edge for my girl Dal, along with Ashanti (which I copied from my cousins bootleg...dang that's ghetto as hell!). She's gonna let me copy her Ludacris Word or Mouf, well, actually it's her friend's cd. This is all twisted! Well, after that, I have to run downtown to return some books that I should have turned in on Sunday, but I got lazy and didn't go down there, so I have to pay some fines on them. Also, I have to stop by Cingular Wireless to purchase a new phone, because the one that I have now is damaged because I dropped the stupid thing in some water! Hopefully I don't have to pay too much for a new Nokia phone! But this time around, I am going to get the phone insurance so I won't have to go through with this again! Sometimes I can be so clumsy! Hopefully, I should be able to get these errands done and make it up to Clifton by 6pm because I am meeting David at that time. I have no clue what we are going to get into this evening, but I know that we will be happy to see each other at the least.
Today is going to be a kick ass day!

Exams are finally over and it feels great to be out of school for like, um, nine days? Well, at least I am working full time at the library and I actually can say that I will be making a decent amount of money, hey, its better than nothing! My gpa wasn't high enough to get a real co-op job. Hopefully I can get my gpa up during summer quarter so I don't have to worry about it. Man, I hope that I'm not trying to be an introvert, but maybe its a part of my nature and I need to break out of that mold.
I went to Kenwood mall with my buddy from high school, Cass. I haven't seen her since graduation night, but somehow we managed to keep in contact since 2000, which is more than I can say for others I guess. It was fun catching up on old times and walking through the mall seeing old classmates. I swear, a lot of my classmates work at that mall, or at least shop there a lot, and it is good to see them, well, some of them.
I should get to sleep very soon, but right now I am speaking with a friend via yahoo messenger about a crisis that she is having. Right now, that seems more important.

The Memorial day weekend is gone. It was good having three days off, but it was kinda boring if you ask me. If it wasn't for Friday and Sunday being pretty good, I don't know what I would have done, except stay at home. *ugh* Well, David and I were supposed to meet Friday at 1pm, but we didn't end up meeting up until 5:30; his car broke down on his way down to Cincy for that meeting, and I had to go home at 1, after telling my Mom on my way out the house that morning that I was going to be home late. Luckily she left out around 2pm, and I had the house to myself for a few hours until he called me back and told me that he was on his way down here. It goes without saying, but I was happy to see him. We only see each other once a week for the time being, and its kinda hard. Things will be different in the summer, hopefully. I went with him to go and check out this place that was looking for a roomate. I was caught off guard that he introduced me as his girlfriend! Well, I'm not used to a lot of things I guess, but being introduced as his girlfriens, I can definately get used to! :) After that we went to chill in Fairview park, which is not far from campus, and then we went back to his place, got some Chinese take out, and just hung out until it was time for me to get back home to Cincy to my Mom (I love her to pieces, but I feel that she dosen't trust me all that much...). So that was my Friday.
Saturday was boring! All I did was sit at home waiting for my Aunt and Cousin to stop by, and they never did. Plus, it began to rain, so I couldn't even go anywhere! I had the opportunity to go to the Taste of Cincinnati with some friends, but I turned them down, twice! There was nothing else that I could have done about that, so basically I was stuck at home, and David was sitting at home for most of the evening too. Damn!
Sunday was better, a big improvement. I went to Northgate Mall with my cousins, and we had a ball! I was glad to see them, since I didn't get to hang with them on Saturday. I told them that I had a boyfriend and everything, and they were happy and supportive too. They were even shocked to find out how my Mother felt about the situation. Hopefully things will cool off in due time, ya know? But I had lots of fun hanging out with them, and this summer we may be able to hang out more like that, once I get my liscense. And speaking of my liscense, I got my temps yet again, but now I am looking for a driving school that I can afford to pay for along with tuition and my cell phone bill. Something in the next few weeks will be worked out. I just have to focus my energy on finals next week.
And as for Memorial Day, that day was boring too. My cousin and I bought a shirt alike and agreed to wear it on Monday, assuming that we would be together. I didn't see her until Tuesday evening! Well, technically on Monday, I was literally "All dressed up with nowhere to go!" But it's cool though, I'm just glad that my so-so weekend is over. I just want to get through finals next week! I have three on Tuesday and one on Thursday! If I can make it through next Tuesday, I will be fine! But I would like to escape from the city after finals are over! Road Trip is what I'm screaming!!! Anyway, I need to find something to eat, as well as catch up with my buddy Simi before leaving campus for the day. Until next time...

With the spring quarter finally winding down to the end, I am looking forward to summer! I have some assignments that are due for my Information Systems class on Friday and Tuesday, but since there is a three day weekend, I should be able to get that second assignment/extra credit done by the deadline without any excuses.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow most of all cuz I get to see my sweetie, David. Haven't seen him since last Friday, but we've been keeping in touch as usual via the phone and instant messenger. But it's gonna be hella cool when he moves down here during the summer, hopefully sometime during June or July. Right now, he is on a mission trying to find a place to stay. After all of the grief that my Mom has been giving me these days, it makes me wonder if I need to get my own space too. I wanted to move out my Junior year anyways, way before all the stuff happenend with my Dad passing and all the drama from the family that came along with that sadness. I'm unsure if I would feel right leaving my Mom in this big house. I guess she thinks now more than ever that I'm going to leave her and never come back. That's not the case, I think that I am ready for my own space now. I just don't want my Mom to suffer because of me wanting my own personal space, and get all of these ideas that I'm leaving and never coming back.

I was thinking that I could move when I gather up enough money. I'm going to give myself until the end of the year, just to see how things go. Besides, I will be working full time for the rest of the year, and basically not spending much time in class after Summer quarter is gone. Exactly, it's more like I won't be spending any time in class during Fall quarter, if I am successful in finding a co-op job for that period of time.
My dream place of work would be at a recording company or maybe at a radio station (if they are willing to pay, I know that some of the radio stations around Cincinnati only have positions where you earn college credit, I can use the college credit, don't get me wrong, but I'm looking to earn and save some money, ya know?). I'm trying to get on somebody's street team or something! To me, promoting music seems kinda fun and interesting all in the same. Well, I do have one place to contact in the city, even if they're not looking for a co-op student, maybe it can be something that I can do on the side while co-oping for some other company, or something to do on the weekends. Mainly I'm looking for the experience, to see if it is really for me, ya know? I thank my boo for the hookup for the promotions team. :) I have to give them a call very soon to see what's up. There's nothing wrong with following a dream, but then again, there is nothing wrong with having a back up plan either.

Like I mentioned earlier, the quarter is winding down. I have my last Spanish test tomorrow before the final exam on June 4th (which is my girl, Charla's birthday!). Also, I have an Information Systems ethics assignment due tomorrow by 5pm. All I have to do for that is edit and shorten the content, and then I am all set on that. Then there is the extra credit that is due on Tuesday, which I am about 45% in the process of finishing. If it wasn't for me recieving two 0's on my lab assignments, I wouldn't have to do this assignment. But I want to see how well I can do on it; I'm afraid that I won't do so well on the final. Sometimes, I just hate taking tests. And speaking of tests, I have to worry about my History final as well. As far as I can see, that is going to be my hardest exam out the four that I have to take. That course involves a lot of memorization and a lot of recopying of the unorganized notes that I take in class, on account of writing so damn fast. Essay exams aren't my favorite anyways. I think I am going to talk to the professor or the TA before June 4th about the best way to prepare for an essay exam. For now, I have to go and get started on studying for this Spanish test tomorrow. Hopefully, it shouldn't be too bad.

Buy something, would ya?

Just a few quirks! Try a lot of them! Every since I got home at around 3:30 am early sunday morning after that date that I had with David last Saturday, all hell broke loose! She bascially cussed him out when I got to the door- it was so embarassing! Then all this past week, I had to deal with my Mom saying "I don't like that you are dating him." Little did I know that it was due to him being white and I'm black. I never knew that she felt like that, I thought that she would be cool about it! I was shocked as hell! And having to deal with her bringin the subject up like every 10 minutes didn't make the situation better! Now I wish that I never told her that it was a date and not a group hangout on a Saturday night. I can't have her in my business like that if she chooses to act like its still 1962 or something. This fell on me like a sack of bricks on my shoulders, and boy, did it hurt. She even went to the extreme to say that he wasn't allowed to call the house anymore! Thank goodness that I got a cell phone plan now!

All I can do for right now is follow my heart. I have a good feeling about David, and my Mom will just have to deal with it if I ever decide to talk to her about him again. About two days ago, she told me that I didn't have to worry about getting her a present for Mother's Day, based on the fact that I "ruined" here week. I got her one anyway, and luckily, she accepted it and thanked me. I'm grateful for that. I guess for now, the situation is calm, but I can't back down from her like that, its like letting her win. I can't do that.

Happy Mother's Day to all the Moms out there.
RIP Ms. Christine. That's my neighbor from across the street. She just passed away overnight. I need to call my friend (which is her great-niece), I know that she needs to get away from the family for a mintue.

Here we go again....this time, its Cinco De Mayo, the fiftth of May. Party out of control, that's what happened near campus:
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This has been the best weekend that I've had in a long, long time. I was overdue for one of those! My great weekend began with dropping that Microeconomics class Friday afternoon. Luckily the professor was cool about it, and there were no hard feelings, which I was extremely happy about. This was the second class that I dropped this year, and now I am down to 12 credit hours, the minimum to be considered a full time student. Now, I must focus on my other four classes, Spanish, History, Physics of Sound and Music, and the Principles of IS. I should have enough time now to get through those four classes without any hard struggle, due to Econ taking up a lot of my time. My goal is to improve my gpa this quarter, and by staying in MIcroecon, that wasn't going to happen. I talked to David later on in the evening to finalize our plans for our date Saturday. I was so nervous about going on my first date and all, due to the circumstances on how we met. I just wanted things to go smoothly.
And as for Saturday, things went smoothly! Smooth like buttah baby! :) I went to the hair salon to get my hair cut that morning. Boy, did I get it cut alright! I didn't realize that I had so many dead ends on my head! I pratically have been scalped! Well, not really, there is still some length in the front, but now with my new haircut, my hair should grow now. Not too long after I made it back from there, my girl Dal called saying that David called my cell phone that I let her borrow on friday. so I returned his call; we basically set 4pm as the time in which we would start our date. I wasn't nervous then, until I saw him around 3:45 going past my street by accident. I just got back from making a run with my Mom and Grandmom, and was opening the door to the house as I saw him drive past. When he called me like a minute after that, I hurried to change my clothes so he wouldn't wait on me that long. I got nervous right after that basically, knowing that I could't chicken out now.
After introducing him to my Mom and vice versa, we were on our way to Newport on the Levee. It was my first time going there, and it was so much fun to say the least! We got tickets to see Spider-Man, but I'll be honest, I really wasn't paying much attention to the movie, on the account of me being cold, and David put his arm around me! :) I'll probably go and see that movie again without him next time. We got the chance to talk a lot about everything it seems like, from prom to cars to dealing with college; we talked to each other like we've been friends for years. That's what made me so comfertable around him!
The rest of the evening went so well, but with a few flaws, such as being asked for out ID's because we were in the park at night. It wasn't like we were busted while doing sneaky things, we were just in the car, cuddling, enjoying the view, that's it. But the cops made me nervous and scared though. And I found out that my ID was at home, along with my keys that were attached to them. Doh!! I had my Social Security card though, thank goodness, and we got off with a warning. The date ended up going a little longer than each of us expected based on the fact that I had to find a way to get into the house! And my Mom wasn't at home! I called a few places to track her down, but finally caught up with her. I told her to meet me at the house. Eventually we made it back to my house, but my Mom was extremely worried and I didn't get any of her phone calls to my cell phone because I left it on silent from when we were in the movie theatre. I felt really bad. I ended up confessing to my Mom about what David and I interntions were for the evening, just to go on a date basically. I told her that it was a group thing, so that she wouldn't worry about me. I was unsure to how she would react to me going on a date with someone. But the air is cleared, and everything is fine. David and I are trying to make some plans to go to the mall Saturday to find some Mother's Day gifts for our Moms.
But for now, I have to get back to my studying, that is if I can stop daydreaming about yesterday. Like I said before, the date was better than my expectations, although there were the few quirks inbetween. If my first date was that fun, I am looking forward to more dates in the future!

The last few days have been very good, for the most part. Like I mentioned in the last entry, I was out in the neighborhood with my friends Friday and Sunday. All we did was clown around basically; that's what we do best. Sometimes I don't have all of the time in the world to hang out with my friends, but then again its not the end of the world either- that's what the weekends are for, to catch up with friends and have fun. And speaking of friends, I just started to talk to David again, the one who went to NKU. I haven't heard from him since January, well, that's because he tranfered to a community college in Dayton due to some personal reason, but will be transfering to UC in the fall. Such luck! Anyways, I gave him my phone number on Saturday, (or was it Friday?) and he gave me a call on Sunday. We talked for like 2 hours, but it seemed just like a few minutes. I was still hanging with my friends when he called my cell phone, and had to excuse myself from the room. I was excited that he called, but felt bad that I ditched my friends for a minute; luckily they understood. He just called out of the blue, and I explained that to him on the phone that night. And to my dismay, he did it again on Monday evening! And just my luck, he happened to be in Cincinnati, with his old roomate from NKU and asked if he could stop by. I agreed, but the entire time that I waited on him to show up, I was thinking that there was another plan that he had in mind. Pretty much to sum that up, I felt that he was suspect of something unsound. But he was true to his word though, and he came by to see me. The strange part was that the face-to-face meeting didn't last all that long than I thought it would. I was back home by 9, which is the time that wrestling comes on. I decided not to watch it though, I just felt weird about the situation at hand. I even called up my girl Cass Tuesday afternoon to discuss the situation! But my worries were cleared up Tuesday evening when I got to talk to David once again; he said that he got sick on his way back home after dropping off his friend back at NKU. He had to get someone to meet him when he was pratically a few minutes from home, due to the fact that he was feeling lightheaded while he was driving. He mentioned that he got sick on the way back home, like really sick, so I stopped worrying why he didn't call me back like he said that he would. I was thinking that he didn't want to speak to me anymore. But things are all good now, we're trying to make some actual plans to hang out Saturday afternoon downtown. I guess that you can call it a date per se, but I will, since I haven't been on one before! I'm already nervous, I don't know what for, since it is only Wednesday or whatever! But if or when our plans are finalized for Saturday, I just hope that we have a lot of fun. Awwww. :P
But I digress, as I sit here in the "nice lab" of CBA as I like to call it, with its charcoal black Dell pc's with 250MB zip drives and comfortable chairs. It's a good way to wind down after Microecon, especially after I got singled out today for talking while the professor was going blah, blah, blah and whatever. I'm really considering dropping the course, not based on being lightweight embarassed, but the fact that the lectures, the book and the notes are three different courses within themselves! I can't risk having my gpa drop anymore this year! It's just too risky! But I will go for now and finish up my Information Systems assignment, which seems more important than Microecon right about now.

Lisa "Left Eye" Lopez 1971-2002~~Gone too soon! |MTV|BET|

Once again, early Saturday morning, around 1 am, I tried to blog, and my pc had crashed for the umpteenth time. Great! I really need to get all of those mp3's off my hard drive, that probably has a lot to with my pc acting crazy sometimes. I was hanging out with some of myn friends last night walking around the neighborhood. I finally caught up with Sudan, I used to go to elementary school with him back in the day. He was trying to be all funny and say that I had a crush on him back in junior high. Yeah right! From what I recall, he wanted me! My girl Dal knew the deal too, he was frontin cuz his boys were around. But its cool though, I'll cut him up another day on that one, I was just happy to finally see him again.
It felt kinda weird hanging out in the neighborhood like that on a Friday night. I'm usually over my cousins's house way on the other side of town chillin or over my Grandmom's house. Maybe its because all my peoples are scattered around the city; Got friends that live nearby campus, and some that live like 10 minutes from the border to Indiana. They are everywhere! I guess with my location, I'm in the central location of the city, can pratically go anywhere that I want to, well with a car I can. I'm definately gonna get my liscense this summer- I can't live like this anymore!
It's almost 11am, and I really have no clue of what I'm doing today. Well, I'm trying to hook up with my cuz to get my ticket for the Usher concert that's coming here June 7th. That is going to be such a great day! It will be my last day of finals, plus it's a good time to kick off the summer with a concert the same night!

Today is not my day to blog. This is the third time that I've began on this entry after accidently erasing it twice! Oy vey!
I'm all worried and worked up about the History midterm that I have to take on Friday. Mostly because it involves an essay question that I am grateful that the professor has handed out two possible choices for the question ahead of time! I'm just not big on essays, they scare me.
I tried to study for an hour before wandering to sites on the net like Huny's and my friend June's site. Then I was chatting with this guy named Matt on AIM. I met him in person once, that was after we chatted with each other in a Yahoo chat room a few days prior. I'm not the one to usually do things like that, but it happened though. Every once in a blue moon we chat and usually run out of things to say within the first 10 minutes.
Anywho, today was the same old schedule. Went to Spanish at 9, work at 10, History at noon, and Microeconomics at 1. I actually payed attention in Microecon today, partly because my buddy Simi wasn't in class today. I'm worried about that class too- I just want to pass it! But if I have to withdraw from the class, so be it. It will only be the second or third course that I dropped this year. I rather have a "W" on my report card rather than an "F". I'm going to try my best and put in some more effort into econ and see how things go between now and the last withdrawl date, which is in late May.
Maybe a simple immediate solution to my worries right now is to take a break. I'm waiting for my Grandmother to come by to pick up some food that has to be taken out to one of my relative's houses. My Cousin Chantel lost her brother-in-law recently. It's just a normal thing to cook up some food; its like a symbol of appreciation, or to say that you care during such a difficult time.
I need to check my email real quick. I'm hoping that I got a reply from my Information Systems professor about the format of the class. On Tuesday a few of the students spoke up and mentioned about how the midterm last week didn't reflect what was in the lectures nor in the book. The "discussion" of sorts went on for pratically half of the class time. The tension was kinda thick after someone walked out the auditorium saying that they were going to file a complaint with the business college office. I hope that things are more calm in tomorrow's class.
Have to go for now; my Grandma just showed up.

10 days later. Last week, between Tuesday and Thursday was the busiest days that I had all quarter. Tuesday I had a midterm in Information Systems;Wednesday I had a test in Spanish and one in the Microeconomics class that I dread; and to top it off, I had a test in my Physics class Thursday morning. Physics is not all that bad, well, the Physics of sound and music anyway; it's not as bad as I thought it would be.
I could sit here and complain about how much I hate Monday's. Honestly I don't want to because I have nothing much to complain about. Well, maybe except for my aching arm muscle, due to me playing pool on Saturday. One of my uncles had a family get-together on Saturday for my little cousins who were in town for Spring Break to visit their Dad, which is my uncle. *not to sound confusing, but these are two uncles that I am speaking of.
Anyway, I was playing pool with my cuz who's 17; she told me earlier that day that I should make an audition tape for the Real World. Don't get me wrong, I've been watching the show since it first premiered on MTV, but never have I thought that I would be a good candidate for the show. She mentioned how silly I can be; not a bad quality to have for a reality tv show, I guess. I've been meaning to email my girl Cass about this one, she'll get a kick out of this one. During our senior year in high school, we talked about the Real World a lot, that and how many days that we had until graduation and all that good stuff.
Somehow I wandered off from blogging and ended up on Luminaire.com, the company that furnished the Real World Chicago house. That "S" shaped bookrack is the coolest item in the house that I've seen on the show! It's very unique!
As for Friday and Sunday, well Friday was cool, since I skipped econ (awww!), and Sunday was just a lazy day, since it rained off and on all afternoon. Luckily I was up at my Grandmother's house spending time with her.
Decent weekend. Now I'm back to the daily grind of spring quarter classes for now.

I am so freakishly tired today. Since I got home earlier this afternoon, I've been wondering around my house like a lost zombie. Maybe its because I took some allergy/sinus medicine earlier. I doubt it, because I've had a rough day, well partially. I got up this morning around 7:30 when I should have got up around 6am, since there was some Spanish homework that I had to finish up, and that class was at 9am. After hurrying to get freshened up and dressed, I left the house at 8:06, missing my bus by like a block. I had to walk up a little ways to catch another bus, in which I made it in time for. I needed the exercise, I am so lazy when it comes to exercising.


I'm not too enthused about relying on public transportation to get me back and fourth to campus everyday. My goal is to have my liscense and a decent car to drive by the summer. Hopefully.


My classes went fine, except for econ as always. I have no clue what is going on in that course, and I am pretty sure that the other 150-200 students don't either, unless they are freaking geniuses or something. I'm extremely worried about that class, becasue I really need to get my GPA up this quarter. I don't want to screw up my elegibility to co-op during fall quarter.


Work was cool, and history was too. After suffering through econ from 1-2:15 on a lovely friday afternoon, I was grateful to leave campus today. By the time I made it home I was beat down tired, but happy that I saw my girl Mary on the bus (and her friend, Dave) during my journey home.


After taking a long hot bath and eating some chinese food that I brought home, I was pretty content with my day. I don't think that I am going anywhere tonight. I need to rest up for the rest of the weekend. Got plenty of classwork and errands to keep me busy for a while.

Ooh, new layout! I thank Blog Skins for that! I don't have knowlesde of css yet, except for how to do a pop up screen, and that's about it. It's spring, and I've been long overdue for a new layout! One of these days when I have the time to learn how to format a layout, I will. But for now, enjoy this one!

Mondays suck. Plain and simple. My day went pretty well today. Had a quiz in Spanish, went to work for a little while, and actually spoke up in History during discussion (that's a big deal in my book!), and I saw some of my campus peoples. All was good today except for Econ as usual. Well, at least out first exam was pushed back in that class. Now I got a little more than a week to prepare. I cringe at the thought that I even have to take the Econ exam in the first place.

College is just a big sacrifice. I'm pretty sure that some people don't understand unless they have been through it themselves. It's tiring and time consuming, as well as stressful. Don't pay attention to the stereotypes, well, because they aren't true. Although there may be a few people trying to live out that sterotype of partying all the time. At least one time during their four years on a campus, they (whomever 'they' may be) has to open up a textbook at least once.

Time management is key to survivial I think, that and getting enough rest and have a decent diet. Eating chips, candy bars, and drinking pop all day just doesn't cut it; although it is hard not to resist with all of the vending machines every 3 feet. Yeah, that's an obvious exaggeration though; its still difficult regardless. In the end all of the small stuff doesn't matter when you get that diploma and have such an overwelming feeling of accomplishment. That's what I am looking forward to in 2004. or '05. Whenever I get finished.

I must go and watch my Monday distraction, wrestling! Whoooooo!
Between Rick Flair's Whoooooo! and Stone Cold Steve Austin's What?, they are in my opinion the best one-word catch phrases on WWF. But I digress. :P

Well, then again, I do have a little something to post that seems a little peculiar. I got this email through my college club account the other day:
Hello and how are you?

You seem to be pretty tight and I wanted to pass something by ya. I travel a lot and I really don`t have much time for a girlfriend or a serious one, but I do have needs and this might be a good thing. I am able to send you $2000 a month and sometimes more if we were able to see one another once or twice a month. No it`s not paying for sex let me explain: If I worked at McDonalds and gave my lady $50 out of my $180 a week check for hair, gas, car, nails or whatever it would be seen as a noble thing. No I don`t think your a gold digger or whore because I am not looking for one of those. I want a nice lady who is mature enough to handle this type of relationship, can keep out personal business to herself and don`t mind starting a love affair that could later lead to something serious. The money is just for fairness because I want you to be able to do nice things when I am not around. Well if your interested... we can discuss it more and here is my number and you can leave yours.

I'm being polite to the guy and to protect his pitiful identity by not showing his name, or the number that was left on the email. Trust me, there was a number, I forwarded the email to my girl up at Michigan. I did have the nerve to reply to him, this is what I said: no thanks. Plain and simple. Um, yea like I wanna just receive some $ from a complete stranger just for a little 'quality time'?! Do I look like a hooker? I'm pretty sure that I don't check the pics on my profile at College Club. Bearcats2005 is my screen name.

Damn, I know that I'm more worthy than some crazy ish like that!

I'm at home, bored out my mind. So, I thought that I share some more links to cool stuff on the web, instead of speaking about my countless hours of boredom and how much I hate my Microeconomics 271 course. It's the weekend for goodness sakes!
It's just'Bow Wow'now folks!

80's cartoons as wallpaper! Lovely!

What's up with this? another girl group loosing a member? At least this time around the circumstances aren't as dramatized as what happened a little while ago with this group.

H to the Izzo! The cromeless layout is hot! I'm biased cuz I love me some Jay-Z!

Right about now this is all that I can post. I'm lazy and all worn out from the almost two weeks of Spring Quarter gone. My sleeping patterns are all out of wack and I feel like a zombie right now. I would work on layouts for my website and this blog, but I have no time. I've regained my outside life after Spring Break ended. It's good to get out the house though, except when its cold and windy. I want spring and I wanted now! I'm practically sick of the winter air, which is making me sick in return. Well, not the air actually, but the germs in the air, whatever.

Oops, I said too much already. It's cool, but I'll end it here; I am craving sleep. Lots of it.

B-ball player gone bad.

Life is so short.

It's official... Huggins is staying at UC!

It's still been a long time...
Well, Spring break is over, and so are the Bearcats in the NCAA tourney; they lost to UCLA in the second round.
It's all cool though cuz Bob Huggins is staying at UC!

I haven't had much time to blog these days. Spring Quarter began today, and it looked more like late winter outside, just rainy and windy and just plain cold. The type of cold that makes you want to stay in the house. But I had to go and take care of business though. Still have books to purchase; I am so tempted to sign up for a credit card right about now. I get at least a couple of applications in the mail about week-and-a-half, and there are credit card reps on campus every now and again. I'll just hold off a little longer on applying for a major credit card.

But I digress, I need to go and read some chapters from the classes that I'm taking. Let's see I'm taking:
Spanish (last quarter of it -woo hoo!)
American History (1920-present)
Microeconomics (which seems to hard already, and the class has only met once!)
Physics of sound and music (I hope that the class is interesting, cuz I'm not good at science)
and the Principles of Information Systems (which is my last business core course before I begin classes based on my major- woo hoo!).

Right when I was starting up that site at envy.nu, this happens: http://envynews.0catch.com/ That's the business world for ya.

It's been a long time...since I blogged!

Winter quarter classes are now over! I'm officially celebrating spring break, although technically it doesn't begin until Monday. But who cares-I'm free from campus stress for a week! I even decided to take a week off from work, which seems a bit extreme because I enjoy my job, but I just don't want to see the UC campus until March 25th, that's all. The only UC related thing that I would like to hear about is the Bearcats being in the NCAA tourney. I checked out the ESPN official site yesterday way before the cats whooped Boston College later on that evening to check out the brackets. I thought about filling one out, but I don't know of anyone running any pools to predict the winners. I remember reading an editorial in the campus newspaper, and the writer pratically said that he's just gonna enjoy watching all the games, instead of rattling his brain trying to predict who's gonna beat whom, especially if you're guessing. That doesn't seem like a bad idea at all; I may download the brackets in pdf format just to have something to do.

Since I'm free from school and work at the library for a week, I think that I'm finally going to open my website at Geocites. At first I used it to transfer all of my pics from my MSN site, because it was at risk of shutting down. Then I began to use it to link to pictures for this blog. After all of that, I should just go on ahead and open it up as a website. Just for an in the meantime sort of thing until I find something else to do...endless possibilities.

I did one thing today: I watched parts of our New Year's Eve party on tape, from 2000 (going into 2001), with my Mom . I haven't seen that tape since my Dad went to heaven. I don't perfer to say died, it just doesn't sit well with me. Anywho, it was just funny to see him try to sing along with the songs that were playing, and watch him scratch his belly on camera. I know that it sounds odd, but all you could see under his sweater was white t-shirt. My Dad wasn't a little guy, he was kinda, well, round, but it just looked funny to see his mannerisms on tape. I'm very grateful that we have New Year's Eve tape. Maybe one day I can show it to my kids, which will be a long time from now. Not ready for the babies just yet!

Gonna go for now and start to work on that layout!